Today, the kids and I got the Christmas decorations out of storage. You all will never know how much those mean to me. When Weston asked for ornaments, I was like "what?". He received thousands of ornaments. Today, as I unpacked the paper boxes that Stephen so lovingly brought us, it took my mind back. Back to that happy time. Back to when Weston was a fighter and I was a total believer in the process. He were all still wanting him to get that transplant and he would rock that. So, I think now, did he really rock it? Is transplant what we SHOULD have chosen? I have mixed feelings but, I know that 1000% we did everything under the sun to keep him going. I know we cheered him. I know we loved him. I know that the kids kept him lively. I know that we did everything we could to get him to gain weight. So, where do you come in? Many nights I laid awake on his couch, looking up at his ornaments. I remember them so vividly. Every ornament let me know that someone, somewhere was thinking of him. In such a weird way, I think that is why he asked for ornaments. He knew Adam and I needed that support. So, please know that this Christmas is just the same. We will hang Weston's ornaments and know that so many people love him and our family. We will have a tree of love from all over the world.
Thanksgiving was awful for me. Giving thanks felt like ripping my heart out of my chest. It took my breath. This year, somehow seemed worse. Not the circumstances, I was surrounded by friends, but it just took me back to our last Thanksgiving. Adam ripped off the door to my oven. It could have been hilarious but I cried. Thanksgiving needed to be perfect. All hospital holidays need to be perfect. His nurse called and we were juggling everything to come. I felt like such a failure. But, in true Keeton form, we rocked it. Weston and the kids ate and ate, we fed the staff, and everyone took a nice nap. Best moments.
For the next few days, we are challenging you to give 5, give 5 dollars to http://www.karisheartfoundation.info They were amazing during Weston's stay and just amazing. Please put it in your heart to give 5 for Weston.
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